My parents got separated when I was very young; I was in
1st grade or so. I don't remember much about how I felt when they
told me they were spitting up, but I do remember talking to many psychologists
about the divorce. My parents made my brother and I go because they
wanted to be sure the divorce wouldn't have an adverse effect on us. For
about 4 years I saw many different ps me how I felt about the separation.
The one thing I remember perfectly is that I would tell every single one
that I didn't care. They would all say I should tell them how I really
felt, but honestly I didn't feel anything. Now I'm 19 years old and
I'm not sure if those feelings were suppressed or I really didn't care.
When I was dealing with difficult times in the beginning of high school
I remember feeling torn between my mother and father when they would argue.
The first time I cried about my parents divorce was 8 years after the fact,
when both of them were already remarried. What upset me wasn't that
they were not together (That would be weird even for me) but the fact that
everyone I love could not be civil towards each other. At graduations,
and sporting events it is always awkward with parents sitting in different
sections, I usually have to visit each one separately. Having divorced
parents is normal for me and I have become very used to the situation.
The aspect that bothers me is that now I spend less time with each one.
I also cannot be in the same place with everyone I love.