Last week I took a couple of days to look at things differently. I had to slow down . I forced myself to feel everything; not only with my senses but with my soul. It is almost impossible to explain. I looked at everything as though it was a dream; everything I saw and interpreted was up to me. I would press the button on the elevator, something I do and take for granted everyday, and I would "feel" the button. I would feel the power of my life to influence the elevator to move. Everything, from brushing my teeth to walking became so new to me. I did not take one breath o my life for granted for two days. IT WAS TWO OF THE MOST REFRESHING DAYS OF MY LIFE. To other people, just another Tuesday and Wednesday. Everything I did, I had control. I felt reborn, I felt like I could do anything.
I was not to only person who felt my joy. By being alive and being around people, I helped other people feel alive. My girl friend told me a couple of days after my revelation that she hasn't felt "that happy in a long time" She noticed a difference in me too. A good difference. For those two days she was alive too!
I regret to say one thing however. It was very difficult to really "feel" alive for more than two days. It took a lot of concentration to remain outside yourself, not taking anything for granted.
That is why I decided to write in a journal. No days will be the same. My journal will persuade me to keep looking at things in a new light.